misery within

Strange feelings provoke me,
cutting inside my flesh,
the wound feels deep,
the feelings controlling me,
confusion hate and others,
mix in the form of jealousy.

Why her?
why not me?
What does she deserve that I don't?

Hatred beckons,
but friendship rules,
no friendship has this kind of rules,
nothing should rule me,

Regret now rules me,
as arguments commence,
Hatred is back,
It tears stronger than ever,
braking the once strong relationship we had,
a relationship like sisters,
to shreads.

Fearfulness prospers as my dreams show me of what may come of our friendship.
I WON'T LET IT HAPPEN!