Small spaces

You are born,
no regrets,
no pain,
no understanding,
only innocence,
a small crack in your parents wall,
caused not by hurt pain or anger,
but by joy and happiness and their ageing.

A small chunk in the wall of life,
formed by your wrongs of your present,
your regrets,
your hurt,
your pain.

slowly the crack turns to a small space,
as your life gains problems,
stress,
as your child copies your rebellious side.

A big black hole is in place of the small crack,
the reason,
loss,
none of your family left,
the ones who created you are gone.

the wall slowly crumbles and the ones you created watch,
they feel pain and hurt,
a small crack appears in their wall.

Your wall crumbles to dust ready for a new one to be built,
and theirs to build another beside them as you once did.

misery within

Strange feelings provoke me,
cutting inside my flesh,
the wound feels deep,
the feelings controlling me,
confusion hate and others,
mix in the form of jealousy.

Why her?
why not me?
What does she deserve that I don't?

Hatred beckons,
but friendship rules,
no friendship has this kind of rules,
nothing should rule me,

Regret now rules me,
as arguments commence,
Hatred is back,
It tears stronger than ever,
braking the once strong relationship we had,
a relationship like sisters,
to shreads.

Fearfulness prospers as my dreams show me of what may come of our friendship.
I WON'T LET IT HAPPEN!